12 Days and counting

Today was a milestone--the last day of class. There will never be another first day or last day or anyday that I go to class, do homework, or read for school. From here there are only 12 more days left to do two presentations (30 min and 1 hour). One project demo (30 min) and finish-up two papers (30 pages--mostly written and 120 pages--all written just making final touches).

That's it!!! Then it's on to other things in life that I haven't been able to do for a while like hang out with my friends, travel, and sleep in on the weekends. There will be more stress in the future I'm sure, but if I can get through this, I think I can do just about anything I put my mind to.

This is a farewell to this blog. It has followed me through the journey of school for the last two years. Through the fun times and the stressful times. Through friends moving away and finding new friends. Now I leave it behind in pursuit of a more artistic or career related blog.

103 and still counting...

That's right, I've written 103 pages and still going strong!! Who would have ever thought I'd have that much to say??? Well, apparently I do.

On a very different note, 3 new CD's to celebrate getting over the 100page mile marker..This makes me very very happy :)

28 days till it's over.. That will be an odd feeling

The hills of life...

I was recently looking back at some earlier posts that I've written and came across one that talked about the hills and valleys of life. I think not matter where you are in life you are either on a hill or mountain, in a valley or creek or just coming from one of those places in life.

Currently I'm on my way to the top of a huge mountain. I can see the top, I know what the goal is, I have the end in sight, but oh... I think I might be at the steepest point of the hike right now. I look around for just a second and I see the past--all the things that God has brought me through. I see the future--all the places God still wants to take me. Most of all I see a consistent theme that has been in my life for the last 10 years....

Ok, I wont' keep you on the edge of your seat any longer! The theme I see isn't hills or valleys, but instead I see God, guiding my every step. Even though it felt like I had a blindfold on the whole time because it was really hard to see the next step, looking back I can see that God did that for my own good. If I would have seen the things ten year ago that He had in store for me today, there is no way that my little tiny brain could have handled it.

I would have never thought that God cared so much about His plan for my life that he had to guard me against myself! I know that may sound weird, but it's true.

I can't believe all the people God has put in my life over the last ten years. I remember a promise that I made to myself 10 years ago next month. The question was--what 3 things can you do for the next 12 months that will affect your life for the next 10years?

I'm looking at what I wrote down all those years ago..
1. go to school
2. build relationships with God and people
3. be financially responsible

I see my attempt over the last ten years to achieve success in all those areas. I see God's blessings because right now I have all those things in my life. I guess it's time to revisit the question again. I don't think number one will be on the list again (I guess you can never say never, and I am going to a talk on PhD schools next week) because there isn't much school left that I could do! Never the less, something to mull over for the next 3 months,

I know God has great things in store for me and I know that the next 10 years are going to be even greater and more challenging then the last ten years.

Think big my friends, God has far more for us then we can even imagine!

from fear to faith

It sounds so easy--instead of fear turn to faith in God's promises. In fact it should be that easy because I have nothing to fear because God is on my side and promises to never leave me. So that's my prayer for the day. When tempted to fear, instead have faith in God's true promises.

1 John 5:4
...for everyone born of God overcomes the world. This is the victory that has overcome the world, even our faith.

more motivation...

So I'm still struggling with trying to motivate myself to keep going. Something things I read this morning are:

1. God wants good things for me (Jer. 29:11). Very basic and I've heard it a million times, but there is so much truth in it.
2. Satan doesn't want good things for me. He wants me to be discouraged and he wants to uproot any seeds of success and faith that I have.
3. In order to succeed in what God has given me, I must look to Him every moment and turn to Him when the enemy tries to discourage me (Heb 10:35). Speak truth and the enemy will flee.
4. The mind and my thought life is what I have to guard against the enemy by speaking God's promises because the mind is what the enemy attacks.

God has given me success in the small things, in the big things, in all different types of circumstances and through Him I will succeed!

thinking and writing for hours....

There is this part of getting a masters degree called a "thesis". As far as I can tell so far it's like the worst thing I've ever had to do. Yes, I've gotten experience in my classes on how to write it. Yes, I know how to do research at the library. Yes, I "know" about it, it's the "doing" it that is so hard.

It's so hard not because it isn't interesting or rewarding, but because it's so much information to think and write about.

I can't believe I ever thought a 20 page paper was big!! That's nothing compared to this. Take about five of those and add in real research and testing and yes, EVERYTHING must be reference d. This means that everything I state must already have been said by someone with credentials!

I think next time I start on a new adventure I should find out exactly what I'm getting myself into. If I ever do decided to get a PhD, I hope that I'll remember this moment in time and how much dedication and commitment research takes.

It's so hard to be motivated but I MUST finish this because I've come so far. From tailer park to having a great job and a lot of options. It would be so easy to get lazy now that life is comfortable, but that's the enemy--being comfortable-- because then one day in 10 years I'll wake up and have no options of bettering my life. This is the motivation I need.... finish now or else I'm not going to accomplish the things I want in life.

well.. back to thinking, testing, and writing...